Chemo Sucks!

Chemo Sucks!

There is no other way of saying this, but I am officially bald. I knew that I was going to lose my hair, but I did not anticipate that it would happen so quickly. This past Saturday, my ponytail completely came out. I was really horrified and shocked at the same time. It was so much hair. I called a girlfriend of mine and cried on the phone to her. She cried with me and told me that she loved me. Thank you Courtney. The following day, I was still kind of in denial about my hair loss up until I took a shower. The warm water was really relaxing and I ran my fingers through my hair, not knowing this would be the last time that I would feel the texture of my hair touch my hands. I opened my eyes and there in my hands was the rest of my hair. Just like that, it was gone. It was nothing compared to the ponytail that had fallen out the day before, I should have been grateful just for that. It was a huge pile of hair resting in my hands, almost like a bird’s nest. I was not shocked, but sad for my loss. I stepped out of the shower and looked at myself in the mirror. I still had some very small patches of hair, enough to make me look completely foolish if I left it that way. I decided to clean it up and make me look as good as I possibly can, so I asked my father to shave my head. Its funny because I normally give him a haircut every two weeks and now the roles were reversed. I’m still getting used to my new look, but one thing is for sure, I have surrendered to accepting that my hair is gone for now, but not forever.

5 Responses to “Bald”

  1. 1 Malcom August 29, 2008 at 10:27 am

    I know this is a big hit to take, G. But I also know that in a few weeks, you will be owning this new look, with the confidence I have come to know and love. You’ll probably be like “Yeah, that’s right, I’m bald…and I look better than you. You know you want this!” 🙂

  2. 2 Diana September 1, 2008 at 1:06 pm

    Sinead has nothing on you :-). In all seriousness, I gotta tell you, you are styling with your new look. Wear it proudly as it shows how much you are preserving through this tough time. This is the hardest thing I’ve had to watch a friend go through but your strength and humor are a constant inspiration to me. Our thoughts are with you and your family as you fight the cancer. You are one tough cookie (that’s code for bossy :-), so keep strong and know that we are here for you. Di & Will

  3. 3 Rachael Hendrickson September 17, 2008 at 10:18 am

    Hey there girly,

    I know that it has been a long while since I have seen or spoke to you and I just want you to know that I think about you everyday. I know you are going through alot right now but I would love to see or hear from you if possible. Please call, my cell # is 630-5958. You are an awsome beautiful person and I know that you will get through this.

    Love ya!


  4. 4 Shelley September 17, 2008 at 4:00 pm

    Hey girl, you are SO fabulous – hair or not! I miss you and think of you a ton – I’m here for you so please take advantage!!!

    Love you… and praying for you! xoxoxo

  5. 5 Kendra Canterbury Stephens September 17, 2008 at 5:14 pm

    hey there!

    You may be bald, but you are still model material. Hang in there!

    I will be praying for you and if you don’t mind I will be adding you to the prayer list at my church. I am also going to speak to my Pastor about getting a donation jar for you.

    I am serious when I say if you need anything don’t hesitate to let me know.

    If you have someone who is willing to do a “fundraiser” for you I have some ideas, tell them to hit me up.

    You are beautiful, hair or no hair. It’s what’s inside, just ask your daughter.

    Hope to hear from you soon!

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