Archive for August 29th, 2008

Bald

Chemo Sucks!

Chemo Sucks!

There is no other way of saying this, but I am officially bald. I knew that I was going to lose my hair, but I did not anticipate that it would happen so quickly. This past Saturday, my ponytail completely came out. I was really horrified and shocked at the same time. It was so much hair. I called a girlfriend of mine and cried on the phone to her. She cried with me and told me that she loved me. Thank you Courtney. The following day, I was still kind of in denial about my hair loss up until I took a shower. The warm water was really relaxing and I ran my fingers through my hair, not knowing this would be the last time that I would feel the texture of my hair touch my hands. I opened my eyes and there in my hands was the rest of my hair. Just like that, it was gone. It was nothing compared to the ponytail that had fallen out the day before, I should have been grateful just for that. It was a huge pile of hair resting in my hands, almost like a bird’s nest. I was not shocked, but sad for my loss. I stepped out of the shower and looked at myself in the mirror. I still had some very small patches of hair, enough to make me look completely foolish if I left it that way. I decided to clean it up and make me look as good as I possibly can, so I asked my father to shave my head. Its funny because I normally give him a haircut every two weeks and now the roles were reversed. I’m still getting used to my new look, but one thing is for sure, I have surrendered to accepting that my hair is gone for now, but not forever.